Random Thoughts

Have you ever just looked around you and wondered, "how did I get here"?

I'm sitting in First Class. A direct flight to Salt Lake City from Austin. I didn't pay a thing. I still remember applying for the job while working at DST in Kansas City. This was something I simply thought I would try out. I remember leaving work early to go to the interview at the airport hotel. We waited soo long for the recruiter to arrive but I stuck it out and was the last to interview. It was a wirlwind experience. Putting in my notice at DST to take a chance on something unknown in another city, another state, a completely different time zone. No one thought I could do. Everyone expected me to come back home during training. I made it through. No one had faith that I would make it through the IOE (initial operating experience- where you fly with another flight attendant and they complete your training). I made it through. Days, weeks, and months went by with everyone still expecting me to fail. I made it through. I am currently one week shy of my 4 year anniversary with SkyWest Airlines. I made it through. Take that folks! It's amazing when you have people on your side and supportive how you can make it through nearly anything. But when you have no one believing you can do it, its harder, but it gives you even more of a push. I didn't fail like everyone expected. I stood my ground and although sometimes I fell, I was the only one to pick myself up.
So here I am sitting on this flight amazed at how far I've come and how much I've dealt with. I certainly didn't think I would still be doing this for 4 years but here I am. How in the world did that much time fly by? When I look back I get really frustrated at how much I didn't accomplish. I could havve finished school. As much as I've worked, I could have paid everything off. Where is that money? Where is that time? I can't say I would start over but I certainly need to relight that fire under my butt!!!
There is soo many things changing. It's scary. I don't think it would be normal if I wasn't scared. Then I would just be cocky and that's when everything falls apart. I just need to find the faith again to go through all of this. To stand up and take what comes at me like I have in the past. this girl has gone through far too much to fail now. I know that this will all work out. It simply has to.
We leave for Austin with a 14' U-Haul and Josh's car pulling behind. We'll be leaving SLC. It almost doesn't feel real. I'm not sure when it will kick in that I'm moving to another state! When we actually leave with a huge truck? Moving into the new apartment? It's going to be different that's for sure. It will be the four of us in the front of the truck and off we'll go for the two day drive. I'm excited. Josh's family has really taken me in as one of thier own. It's a good feeling. Although, I miss my family, I'm hoping we will get to go to Missouri more often now that we're living in Austin.
I finally got to see the new apartment. I didn't get to see our's exactly but a model of a larger 2 bedroom. It's amazing! Even better? Josh decided on it for us. I'm impressed with him knowing what I would like and what would be best for US. I love it. I feel soo small in the kitchen. The best part of the kitchen- THE PANTRY! WOOHOO! (and no formica countertops!) The best part of the bathroom- THE GARDEN TUB!! Can we say nightly bubble baths with a glass of wine? HA, let's hope that doesn't get out of control. It is on the ground floor and while that's a bit nerve racking I know it will be easier for moving and easier on my back with my bags when commuting to work. And the storage on the patio locks too, so that's an added advantage. I'm really excited abotu the new placce and painting some walls. :-)
I'm hoping that my family can take a small weekend trip to Austin and see it and we can all hang out. I have this crazy image in my head. Maybe it's not crazy but simly how I would like things to work out. We'll save that for another day. Let's not get ahead of ourselves. I know we will definitely be going to Missouri in April for Hannah's confirmation. So I'm hoping they can come to Texas and experience this a bit since they didn't get to see a lot of Utah. :-( Things are going to change with that. I don't get home nearly enough and that's not fair.
I never thought that nearly a year ago (one more short month away) I would have met Josh and all of these experience would have fallen into my lap. It's a crazy ride and I'm not ready for it to end.